The difference between when I last posted and now with this post is that I have now taught a handful of lessons.
I really wonder
how I am supposed to pick up the skills to teach full-time (in just THREE weeks) when I can't even control the class during a short 20-minute lesson, and sometimes, even read-aloud.
It is so overwhelming.
Thoughts of creating expectations, using positive reinforcement, following through with consequences, presenting and projecting with authority, rewarding swirl, swirl and swirl in my head. And I just can't seem to jump high enough to grab enough of these strategies to piece together to use consistently and confidently.
It's hard to set expectations when you don't know what expectations you have of yourself.
It's hard to set expectations when you don't know what expectations people have of you (with your cooperating teacher or university supervisor).
A teacher can't teach if he doesn't believe he's a teach-er.
I'm just praying for it all to click; to fall into place.
Failure looms over my head this weekend as I try to absorb, digest, reflect and create solutions.
It will work.
It's just a little overwhelming.