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Why you wear gym shoes

Anonymous — Wed, 06 Jul 2011 17:07:11 GMT

3 posts this week? WTF! I know right! Today I am stressing. Not about moving to another country or things I can’t control like family and friends and conventions that change schedules and make my brain explode. Today I’m stressing about my face.

When I was six I went to a Catholic elementary school. On Wednesdays we did a church service. It was winterish and I had to do a reading so my mom dressed up really nice and put me in these hideous red knit tights. It was raining so we went to the gym for recess and they made us take our shoes off and run around. So I’m playing tag, and I’m it, and the fastest girl in the class is inches from my grasp when my feet slip out from underneath me. So I use the opportunity of flying through the air to dive and tag her. Then I look down and realize there’s no way I’m going to get my hands down in time and I crash into the concrete.

But this isn’t the bad part. The bad part is at 6 I was very entrepreneurial. I had lost my first tooth and gotten $1 for it. So I pulled all of the other baby teeth out of my head, was the biggest gummy kid you ever saw, just to make some extra cash. The tooth in the front was my only tooth and it was over 3/4 of the way grown in. Do you see where this is going? My tooth shattered into a million pieces as I hit the ground. I won’t give you any other details about it, but let’s say I spent three days in the dentist office getting a root canal.

The dentist let the last little bit of tooth grow in and then covered it with a resin crappy mold of what he thought my tooth should look like and just stuck it in there at some random angle. I was in braces for 4 years between 12 and 16 because the way he jammed the tooth in there screwed up my face hardcore. We found out later that my jaw was dislocated and the orthodontist had to pop it in back in place with the orthodontic rubber bands. That was not a fun day.

Anyway, so I went to the dentist, some 20 years later after all this. The tooth in front is awful, gray, and having other problems so I have to have surgery to take it out. But they’re going to put a crown in so I will actually look like a human. I need to get braces again because I still have a baby tooth and the adult tooth isn’t above where the baby tooth is anymore. They need to remake a gap and pull it down. This caused my bottom teeth to shift and get crooked to compensate for the large gap. Depending on whether or not the orthodontist can do this, and pop my jaw back in place, depends on whether or not I go in for at least two rounds of jaw reconstruction surgery.

So, I’m kinda freaking out about money and recovery time and a million other things right now. Like that we have to move to freaking Switzerland and I have thousands of dollars of fracking dental work to do because a couple of people who didn’t think things through screwed up my head. I’m pretty upset about it. And not excited about getting my face cut open, but at least old gray tooth will be gone. Here goes nothing.

Tagged: gross, my life, random, walking accident

Never growing up

Anonymous — Wed, 14 Jul 2010 14:02:02 GMT

I have always been interested in and fascinated by children’s things. I love all things little kid. I love their toys, games, wonder at the world, television and movies. I worked at Walt Disney World to help make magic for families and immerse myself in the world of Bear in the Big Blue House and The Little Mermaid. To this day, and probably forever, I make time to watch children movies, shows, etc. I love to stay up with what they’re doing, not only for my pursuits as a young adult author, but because I just love the immediacy of everything. Everything is new and wonderful and possible.

This weekend I went to see Despicable Me. It was absolutely fantastic. The drama and plot was phenomenal as the children and adult navigated their world and became a family. The comedy was great. I have been running around screaming “It’s so Fluffy!” or “It’s so fluffy I’m gonna die!” over and over. I love the innocent nature of Agnes in the movie. Everything is questionable and fun. Everything is kind and happy. There is nothing bitter or cynical about her. She just is. Despicable Me helps me to see that being a kid at heart and never wanting to lose that spark of wonder is something worth doing, even if everyone else thinks I am weird, immature, or hate my guts.

Tagged: issues, movies, my life, thoughts

Fatty-ness, bunnies, where am i going?

Anonymous — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 19:45:52 GMT

Current weight: 184

Current low weight, that i think was a fluke since i was averaging 173 except that week, 163 in May.

I’m depressed about this, and I need to make time to exercise. This is really hard when we have a million things to do like move and clean the house for the landlord to show it tomorrow and deal with familial drama. Then add in there stress with family events and starting work in less than a month. I’m kinda freaking out, though I ate way better all weekend and have exercised some. I think I said this already, but I am still a size 12 which is better than my 187 size 16, but still very discouraging.

I need help. I started writing down everything I was eating, and that curbed a lot of things, but I just get so hungry and have a hard time with veggies because of my allergy. Not to mention loving food and not wanting to eat just a veggie for breakfast and lunch. AAH! I had been doing so well. And I have lost 30 pounds in the last year… Sigh

Current Happy thought: I found a great site with lots of info about supplemental bunny training and advice on making her travel. YAY!

QUESTION TO THE BLOGGING WORLD: What types of blogs do you like? Funny? Provocative? Is it better to write just about one topic or share personal stories as well? Do you have a separate life blog and then one about issues? Or can you write about both like an online diary?

Tagged: bunny. bunnies, mcfatty monday, my life, questions, rabbit, rabbits, random

Atheist Recruitment

Anonymous — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 14:29:49 GMT

Schools in this country are to be non-secular and separated from the church. In spite of much controversy, Oklahoma has proven to repeatedly not follow this rule and match science and religion against each other. Although we are not supposed to be talking about religion, what about not religion?

A teacher in my building is an atheist. Like Christian people, she consistently brings up the topic of religion and tries to “save” the children to her ideals. Constantly she puts doubt in their minds surrounding their spiritual beliefs. Is this a violation of state vs. religion? How would you feel if a teacher “saved” a student from the supposed falsehood of religion?

Tagged: issues, my life, talking to myself

Differences between the sexes

Anonymous — Sat, 26 Jun 2010 14:22:59 GMT

Most mommy bloggers would probably agree that men have different priorities. I know she’s gotten a lot of flack, but I really love Tori Spelling. Most of the things she has been going through in her life recently I am going through, too. Examples: family troubles, crazy parents, professional dislike, etc. In her latest book she seems sad and there were several things that stuck about her relationship between her and Dean and a priority shift between the two.

Tori observes that most men spend their free time doing something she loves while most women feel obligated to spend time with their families. Discuss!

She also points out how when men go out they are looked at with pride while women judge one another by appearance (and in some cases whether or not they are a ***). Thoughts?

Lastly, she makes the observation about the male need for closeness through exchange of physical intimacy without consideration for the fact that women need to literally be in the mood or else there is no way they can get anything out of it. Objections?

Let me hear you!

Tagged: issues, observations, talking to myself

Reading Depression

Anonymous — Fri, 25 Jun 2010 14:16:24 GMT

As my obsession post previously mentioned, I am obsessed with characters and get addicted to them. Growing up I always had a hard time making friends. My friends were the people in the books. I cried when I finished a series, like A Wrinkle in Time, because my “friends” were gone and I couldn’t share any new adventures. Harry Potter was a huge part of my life, and no I didn’t get to go to the park while I was in FL , and when it was over it left an emptiness I could not explain. A new emptiness has filled my heart in a way that I haven’t felt before.

Megan McCafferty’s Jessica Darling Series has been a light for me in dark times the last six months. Her communicator observations of humanity, ability to judge the symptoms of those around her, and insightful commentary on life and love have been a huge comfort to me the last several months. Jessica’s amazing internal monologue was insightful, brave, and so much like me. Marcus’s caring and aloof nature made me love and long for someone so in touch with the spirit of things around him. I am not as cynical as Jessica and have a lot of Marcus’s soul within me, but the way Jessica analyzes people and events is so me. I do have to say that I pretty much wanted to choke her dead in the 4th book. And I was a bit concerned about the disjointed-ness of the last book, but my heart still aches at the thought of these two amazing characters leaving my life.

Read these books if you really want some insight into the human condition as observed by someone thoughtful and observant of how the world has changed, or not changed, in the last 50 years. An amazing read.

Anyone have any suggestions for what I should read next?

Tagged: books, my life, reading

Another adventure

Anonymous — Thu, 24 Jun 2010 14:11:50 GMT

Commitment is something that I have never been too afraid of, but something I go into very carefully. Buying a house has proven to be an exciting and stressful journey almost like a relationship. I’m crushing on my potential house. Waiting for confirmation from a friend or authority figure that it will work out (lender). I make an offer, the first step to including it in my life. The offer could be rejected, or another buyer chosen, leaving me crushed and homeless. Perhaps it could be accepted, though with strings attached. I’m hoping that everything will work out. Here’s hoping.

Tell me about a big step you’ve made in your life. What happened? Tell me about your home buying advice.

Tagged: buying a house, my life, random, stress

One last blow before I go

Anonymous — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 19:55:29 GMT

After standing up in front of the entire district and swearing they weren’t going to fire first year teachers, the superintendent sacked every first year in the district. After being robbed seven times, no one did a single thing. No charges were filed. No investigation was done. After being threatened, nothing happened. I was told by the police force “what did you expect from those kids?” I went down on what was supposed to be a motivational conference. SOMEONE did not make travel arrangements for us from the airport to the hotel, 30+ miles away, nor from the hotel to the conference 4 miles away. I called the principal who assured me he would put in a PO right there to pay for a rental car. I told him I do not want to get stuck holding the bag and he said he would pay for it out of his own pocket. Yesterday I called to try and get this figured out. He said he was sorry, he would figure it out, he remembered telling me yes then got busy and “forgot” to do the PO. I should have made him send me an e-mail saying that he was going to pay for it. Today I was told that I am stuck with the $500 rental car charge. I chauffeured people around FL for 4 days! I should have skipped the conference and the loafers AND GONE AND SEEN MY FAMILY OR AT LEAST GONE TO THE WIZARDING WORLD OF HARRY POTTER!

I am so angry right now. I lost over $400 worth of stuff the MANY times I was robbed, not to mention my sense of security. Yes, I was proud they didn’t make personal attacks, but JESUS! Now I am stuck with a $500 charge because my jerk of a principal is claiming he never even talked to me and would NEVER have said I could do that. I should have ditched the conference and gone to visit my family since they didn’t pay me back for anything anyway! I mean, sure I got some good professional development, ideas, etc. BUT THIS IS HARRY POTTER AND MY FAMILY!!! I want to smear the school on facebook and send a nasty e-mail to the superintendent about all of the BS I had to deal with this year, all of the BS that I didn’t report to the media and I should have. All of the things I should put in a book…

Teacher gone off the deep end because of lack of support, generally getting screwed over, and then people wonder why others say you’re “Just a Teacher.” Why? Because even in education they treat us like second class citizens they can step on over and over and over again.

Tagged: admnistrators, people suck, stress, teaching

Misjudged?

Anonymous — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 14:05:12 GMT

While on my trip I spent some time with a woman from my school I didn’t get along with most of the time. She was rude and crass constantly. I never felt like she wanted to collaborate, she even attacked me once in the teacher’s lounge. When hanging out with her this week, I realized she wasn’t trying to be mean she just came off that way because of her bluntness. Like my co-teacher, she has a I’m always right and know everything attitude, but she was willing to look into the expanse of relationship development my co-teacher was unwilling to see. She wanted to collaborate, but when the almighty co-teacher came down and told everyone what to do it just got people upset. Now I wonder about my judgments of her. Yes, she is a negative person who never once believed in supporting the school or its initiatives, however, she is an amazing teacher with a desire to learn new things. I wish she would have been my mentor because she is flexible and understanding.

My misjudgments go on to include people I thought were my friends. People who have even gone so far as to talk bad about me AND unfriend me from facebook. I know, who gives a crap about facebook, but in all seriousness how far do you have to push someone you eat lunch with daily that come summer you are going to unfriend them. Sure, I have considered deleting a lot of them, but jeez. I guess it’s easier to be the dumper than the dumpee.

What do you do when you think you’ve misjudged someone? What do you do about facebook friends and unfriends?

Tagged: my life, random, stress, talking to myself, teaching

Professionalism?

Anonymous — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 13:55:54 GMT

So people have been talking *** about me. A lot of *** apparently. Part of me doesn’t care, shrug it off and be like a duck like my mama always told me, but some of it really resounds within me. Last week I went to an amazing conference about getting to the nuts and bolts (hence title) of educational problems. Nearly 600 people were in attendance. It was a great conference. Except for a couple of hiccups.

I am passionate about racial relations in urban schools. I went to presentation about this. The presenter (www.mamaj.org people! check her out!) asked for someone to give a personal story about how building a relationship with a student paid off for you. After three answers that talked about the vague idea of why relationships are important, and she chastised them and said she wouldn’t go on until she got a story, I raised my hand. I explained what happened throughout my school year (robbed 7 times and life threatened) and then went on to say that through my relationship development we received over a 40% pass rate for the state tests in my room and the previous year it was 7%. People clapped. She offered me a job. I went to the next session feeling empowered through my sharing. I’m sitting in the back of keeping staff morale up. 2 girls go and sit diagonally from me, glare at me, and say very loudly “There’s that *** with the high test scores.” I was appalled. Here we are united to reinvigorate each other for the upcoming year, share stories, and work out problems. And these two women cannot push past their jealousy(?) or whatever it is and have to tear down a success. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t know what to say. I was hurt.

The next day the conference chair came and asked me if I was Elizabeth from Oklahoma that went to the Mama J session and then the staff morale session. “Yes,” I say nervously. Apparently someone else went and tattled and she apologized on behalf of the conference. I should have tried to get free registration for next year or a free book or something, but it wasn’t their fault. It was nice they tried to make up for the animosity, but it got me thinking. Why is this ok? Why do people do this ***?! I don’t think I will ever understand. Tony Limoges said sometimes you just have to let the bad things go and not try to understand, but why do people have to be so cruel?

Tagged: people suck, s is for STOOPID!, stress